I realised it isn’t something so good after all. Being too friendly, being too hyper. Sometimes, you give out so much, yet, you don’t receive what is expected. Sometimes, I get so tired of being the one that’s always taking the first step. Sometimes, I wished others would just care a little bit more. Sometimes, I really question, who are the ones I can really go to in times of trouble. Those whom once I thought can be, guess things just changed overtime. I began blaming myself, have I not done my best? Have I not?
I’d remember giving my best, and loving the people I loved. Yet, sometimes, the reply I received just make me think that it’s just a one-sided thing after all. There gone the happy-go-lucky me. I began to defend myself even more now. I don’t know what else to do.
That beyond description disappointments. I sighed to myself.
Have a little faith? Where are you, dear faith?